Last night

The night before last I got 4 hours of sleep.  I know, I need to sleep a lot because I'm growing a human energy sucker right now but I think I have RLS again.  I had it forever ago and it went away but now I'm getting crazy legs all over again.  That is what kept me up on Sunday night...that and knowing that I had to come back to work on Monday. Blah.  That will just suck the life out of everything, won't it?

My key to beating RLS is usually to try to fall asleep before it gets bad but I'm the type of person who needs to be in the perfect state of mind whilst trying to fall asleep.  I have to think of something rad and peaceful and calming and if my mind wanders to the dark side then I have to start all over again.  Falling asleep can be quite a process for me, especially if the husband is not home.

This, along with my recent spikes in panic attacks have made sleeping something I just don't look forward to anymore. How freaking weird is that?  Doesn't everyone want to crawl in bed, get comfy and crash out for a good nights sleep? Well apparently not everyone because I don't. I want to stay up and watch Frasier and The Nanny re runs.  I'm not lying about that.

(Now let me clarify again: Mike works late on Saturday, Sunday and Monday nights.  He usually doesn't get home until around midnight and even though I live in a quiet, quaint neighborhood with no violence or crime I am convinced that my house will get broken into and I will get raped and killed. This is a retarded thing to think about every night when I'm home alone, I know, but I think that has something to do with it to.)

But the most magical thing happened last night... I fell asleep at 8 o'clock! EIGHT O'CLOCK! And I slept until about 7 this morning. That is almost 11 hours or sleep yo!  I woke up this morning and I smiled. I was afraid that the pressure I gave myself to fall asleep would have the reverse affect on me, but it didn't and I slept.

I dreamt that I was going into labor (for some reason I knew I was around 37 weeks pregnant, which is full term).  I was totally calm and excited about the whole thing.  What a nice change!