They say I'm a dreamer

I will be the first to admit that yes, I have been dreaming about getting married since I was a little girl. I twirled in dresses found in our families costume trunk and I even use to cut out pictures of garish poof sleeve dresses from the early 90's and paste them to my paper dolls. Dreams of lace, and tea roses and pearls danced in my head. I would draw my dream wedding gown on scraps of paper and it always looked the same (boat neck, ball gown, lots of tulle and very white). I would circle pictures of ginormous engagement rings in Sears catalogues and hide it under my bed, for fear that one of my brothers would find it and tease me endlessly. When Mr. D and I were talking about getting engaged, we went to the jewelry store together, I narrowed it down to three choices and he made the final decision. Needless to say, he did a wonderful job:
So, what am I getting at? Well I'm a hopeless romantic. Lets just get that out there. I love everything wedding. I love the vows, I love the cake, I love the dancing, and I love how hopeful everything is. Romantic Comedies ALWAYS make me cry, no matter what (my favorite is Love Actually) and I once looked up "Proposals" on YouTube and watched as many as I could fit in on a very slow day at work. I try to find happiness in everything around me, and can make a good situation out of bad one, usually.

Lets go back to dressing up paper dolls and innocence. I was 7, now 16 years later, the innocence is gone (mostly) and I'm planning a wedding. A wrench has been thrown into the mix people, a wrench. I'm making hard decisions like who is contributing financially to the wedding, and easy ones like what the bridesmaids are wearing (black, and other than that I just don't care). But I find delegating to be the worst of this process, along with the feeling of making every last person, every last guest and family member happy. When I dreamt of my wedding, I dreamt of the day of, and not the planning process. I feel like there are a thousand people to make happy and to keep in mind during all of this, and the last people I think of when making my decisions are Mr. D and I.

I'm taking a stance. Its time to man up and tell everyone how I feel.

P.S. I swear to post something a little more wedding-y a little later on. Maybe today.

*Side note: being an Arizona native I have to say GO CARDINALS!